I lost it

I dunno what to do! I feel so unhappy with myself. I don’t have a job, I don’t have friends here in Berlin, I am the whole day alone at home. Sometimes I think I am getting one day crazy, or maybe I am already? God please, give me my smile back! I think I lost it somehow. And I think I wont survive any longer without it…

If you have seen my smile, then PLEASE let me know it. Thank’s.

Eat, Pray and Love

Let me ask you something, in all the years that you have…undressed in front of a gentleman has he ever asked you to leave? Has he ever walked out and left? No? It’s because he doesn’t care! He’s in a room with a naked girl, he just won the lottery. I am so tired of saying no, waking up in the morning and recalling every single thing I ate the day before, counting every calorie I consumed so I know just how much self loathing to take into the shower. I’m going for it. I have no interest in being obese, I’m just through with the guilt. So this is what I’m going to do, I’m going to finish this pizza, and then we are going to go watch the soccer game, and tomorrow we are going to go on a little date and buy ourselves some bigger jeans.

Home again

Home again, home again,
one day I know, I’ll feel home again
Born again, born again,
one day I know, I’ll feel strong again

I left my head, many times I’ve been told
all this talk make you old
So I close my eyes
Look behind
Moving on

Lost again, lost again,
one day I know, our paths will cross again
smile again, smile again
one day I hope to make you smile again

Many times I’ve been told
speak your mind, just be bold
So I close my eyes
Look behind
Moving on

And the tears will clear
Then I feel no fear
Then I’d feel no way
My paths will remain straight

Home again
Home again
One day I know
I’ll feel home again
Home again
Home again
One day I know
I’ll feel strong again

Lyric from Michael Kiwanuka – Home again

<3 <3 <3

I think I am addicted to my boyfriend. I need him around me like 24/7… Seriously! Otherwise I just really feel uncomplete. My heart aches.
But damn,… I know he is only at work right now. Stop it, heart! He will come home soon.

And then……….. hug him til death!!!

Woahahahaha.

I hate being sick

Do you know this feeling when you gonna start to annoy yourself? Then you  know how I feel now. Since a week I am sick. And it don’t seems to be better! I even can’t sleep at night,… I am desperate.

Please, can someone cut off my head? Thanks.